Make · Believe

Well, first of all, the person I would like to talk to wouldn't be the person who has hurt me most in life. I don't know who has hurt me most in life but she is kind of annoying - does that count as well? She is such a hypocritic, arrogant and superficial person. Really, she is. Whenever she is talking I want to just run away or throw things at her. I guess, you all get my point that she is a nightmare. What I do, when I can't stand a person: I just avoid him/her. But she kind of makes it hard because I actually can't avoid her. I have three classes with her and - you may not believe it - she likes me. I don't know why & I really don't want to know but it's just the way things are going. She likes me. I dislike her. Bad combination actually, isn't it? No, there is no way, I could possibily like her. Not in a million years. No. Never. It's not like I am that friendliy to her so that she'll like me. No, I am friendly to everyone. Maybe that's my problem. But there are certain situtations in which I am directly showing her that I do not like her and she still isn't getting my hints. Anyway, now to the Writer's Block:
I would tell her that she really is annoying me. That she should leave me on my own without getting on my nerves. I would tell her that I almost hate her for having done things to me. "Things". Explaining those things would take me a lot of time and you probably wouldn't get everything since it is a long, long story.
Love that song by the way::
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6t5cDxvlpkQ&feature=related
 

Today I started watching two Mangas: Kare Kano & Peach Girl. I used to watch a episode every single day but I've finished it many, many months ago & today I just thought that I could watch them again. Do you know those Mangas? Peach Girl is my favorite one because it's just so funny & emotional at the same time. Well, Kare Kano is funny & emotional as well but I just like the story of Peach Girl way more then Kare Kano. After watching 3 episods I've decided to do homework - yeah, bad decision, I know. Homework. Well, I like school (please don't hate me now for saying this!) because I can see my friends everyday & be with them everyday - that's the good part of school. Some teachers are nice as well so you can talk with some of them, too. I just have two years then I will be studying. After those two years everybody will go to different places. Isn't it just weird? I hope that at least some of my friends will stay here - it's not like everybody wants to move to another city but that would be bad. I don't want my best friend to be apart from me. Talking of 'being apart': Some of my friends are not in school this week. Why? Well, it's like a trip except that they are staying in a castle and just sing all day long. I was there last year. It is quite nice but this year I didn't want to participate and yeah, that's why I am here and most of my friends there. It's okay & they will be back on Friday anyway. Oh, by the way: My little brother will turn 6 on Friday - how cute is that? And on Sunday I have my first handball match! I am really happy since I really love to play handball! Hey, you know what? Yesterday I had time to take some pictures! Well, I just wanted to take photos & that's why I ended up photographing my eyes. It's not that exciting but I will post it in this entry so you can take a look at it.
Anyway, I have to do an essay for Germanclass due tomorrow & well, I am almost finished. Lucky me.

Ps.: I do have Twitter. If you want to follow me there - my name's: Yasemin104
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As I am writing this the sky is turning red & with the blue sky it looks really nice. Makes you dream away & just stare out of the window. It's sometimes quite impressing how nature can calm you down actually. I am the kind of person who likes the sun & the rain. They both have good & bad sides. When I am lying in bed & it's raining outside &  I hear the raindrops falling on the roof - this actually calms me down somehow. I just close my eyes & listen to the rhythm & yeah, that's all. I do like sunshine as well. I just love both sun & rain. Rainbows.
Anyway, I am a bit sad that I cannot use my camera way more often. I am just so busy with school that I almost have nothing to do but do homework. I would love to go outside and just take pictures but no, it's like every teacher thinks that his subject is the more important one. Sure, I can take photos when it's weekend but hey, do not forget this: I am playing handball since I am 6 years old! (In fact you might wonder: I am 17 now.) That means that almost every weekend is full of handball matches or handball training or handball whatever. I am not mad about that since I really love playing handball but then afterwards that leaves no space for anything else. Oh, now the red in the sky is gone & just the blue sky's left. Anyway, nothing special in this entry but I just wanted to share my thoughts with you.

1. I have a DSLR: Olympus E-410.

2. I would like to study english & spanish.

3. From all the Twilight actors Edward Cullen is by far my favorite.


Sorry, for not posting. It's been a while. I just got the feeling that nothing special happened & that it wouldn't have been interesting to read actually. Anyway, guess what's the lie? (:

Alright, I don't know where to start actually but I just start writing from the beginning, right?
Today I went to school to  get my schedule. Well, it's not like I go to school & get a paper with my schedule. No. That would have been way too easy. It was really confusing because first I had to find my classteacher & then other formal stuff & then arrange my schedule. Anyway, I don't want to bore you but let me say that it almost took 2 hours! There were many people in school & I had to wait till I could see the lists with my name on them & such. But my schedule is nice & I almost couldn't resist dancing around because I have most of my classes with my two best friends - you can't even imagine how happy I am! Anyway, of course I saw many of my classmates & we all talked a bit & then started comparing our schedules & it was fun talking to my classmates. We sat on the stairs then & started comparing the schedules & then it happened: A girl showed up. And yes, I am writing "a girl" & not a classmate! Be glad that you don't know her! Really. I am not exaggerating! She is such a hypocrite you can't even imagine! I was glad that finally there would be new classes & that I will perhaps get rid of her. Anyway, I don't talk much to her because I just don't like to pretend that I like her or such things. A normal conversation starts with a "Hi" from her & ends with a "Hi" by me. That's all. Anyway, then - as I told you - she showed up. She noticed that we were comparing our schedules & started comparing with us as well. It was my turn & I read out loud my classes when suddenly "the girl" started smiling at me with such a face that I was wondering why on earth I made her laugh. You already may have guessed it: I have two classes with her! Two! Sure, two, just two. But those two are one of the three important ones! And 2 of 3 with her? Oh God. I tried to hide that I was really pissed off. And she even didn't recognize it! And I am not that well in acting, alright? But the worst part was how she acted afterwards: She tried to hug me. Yes, hug! Well, maybe not really to hug but her face was close to mine if you know what I mean! She was so happy & I am really wondering why. Maybe you want to know why I dislike her? It's her attitude. How she's acting. Everything. I always try to get along with people & so do I with her but every time when I see her I am thinking: "Oh God, please make her go away!" She is one of those people who think they are the best in everything while in fact they are not. She is good in school though but that's all I guess. And she's vain. I hate vain people. And she always - always! - tries to give you the feeling that she is way smarter & cleverer then you. I don't have any problems with people who are smarter & cleverer than me - not at all! - but she's really overdoing it! 2 of 3 important classes with her - oh God. And I am not the only one who thinks of her the way I do! Anyway, I am not angry or anything else. I just hoped to never see her again but well, that's life, I guess?

I am back home &  I don't know whether I should be happy or not. I always find 'new friends' during holidays but this time I really found a really, really nice friend. She is so nice & we have so much in common. And thanks to destiny she lives in Germany as well. And she even lives in the same federal state. She flew back home yesterday & we were sad of course. We talked all the time & the goodbye was..well, it was not that hard because we promised to visit each other. The last three days we did nice things like sitting on a bench till 2 am & such. We talked the whole time & it was really nice actually. And I'll make sure we stay in contact!
Majorca was really nice & warm - I got tanned! I don't know what to write actually. Yesterday I was in Majorca, now back home missing a new friend. And on thursday I have to get up at 7 am because school starts. I am sorry that  I couldn't update anything while being in Majorca. The Internet was way to expensive.
Wait a minute: Am I writing just random nonsense stuff? I've got the feeling my head will explode because I am soooo tired & on one hand I am happy to be back home but on the other hand I am missing my new friend. I hate saying goodbye.
But hey: I always keep my promises & as I said before: We will stay in contact & meet each other :)
Sorry for writing nonsense random stuff.

I’ve realised that everything I’ve written here was about me flying to Majorca & such things. Today I want to make a different post - don’t ask me why. Isn’t Life Journal a great thing? I mean you write here your thoughts & feelings and after a while you might get comments with other thoughts & opinions. People you don’t even know answer to your thoughts & feelings. With some of them you have the same thoughts, with others not. It’s just a common thing I guess. It’s not possible that you can be ‘friends’ with everybody. I like LJ better than my own handwritten journal. Why? It’s because of you guys out there. I like knowing the opinion of other people & my handwritten journal doesn’t answer back - haha. Would be funny as hell when the handwritten one would be able to answer back, wouldn’t it? Anyway, my point is that it’s good to hear the opinion of other so thanks to all who are reading my entries once in a while & replying to them. I hope I am not boring everybody with my entries. I always read the entries of others back & you know what? I’ve found LJ because I was searching some quotes. http://tell-melove.livejournal.com/ Then I’ve found her actually. And I was so amazed by her quotes! They are really awesome! Hey, could you do me a favour? Read the entries in this Journal: http://tell-melove.livejournal.com/ ! I really love her entries &  I wonder why she didn’t get any feedback back. I really love her quotes & do love the pictures as well. It’s amazing how you can create a certain atmosphere with ‘just’ words & pictures. And she definitely has this talent! So please do this favour for me.

Hey, you know what? You may not believe it but: I’ve finished packing yesterday. My bed isn’t a mess anymore & it’s a nice feeling to know that I don’t have to do anything anymore for the holiday like packing & such. And I am excited somehow! I don’t hate flying but I don’t like this feeling you get when the plane is landing or ready to taking off. It’s like being in an elevator & I hate elevators! As long as I can look out of an elevator (because it has windows or such) it’s okay. But the common thing is that those elevators don’t have windows or anything else to make me feel comfortable. I don’t like when the pilot has to get his right position for the flight because that means he has to fly up & down, up & down until he gets the right position. And landing is the same thing. But hey, I will fly to Majorca! I don’t care about this ‘elevator-effect’! Oh, there is one thing that CAN make me feel uncomfortable during a flight as well. Guess what? I think that everybody knows that during the flight mobile phones are forbidden. And when I see somehow who has his mobile phone in his hand then I get nervous sometimes. But then I remind myself that my mobile phone has a “Flight-Mode” which means that you  just can use the camera & listen to music and that there is no connection so nobody can call you & you can’t receive messages & other things.  Last year I wanted to do that as well (The Flight-Mode) but then I felt like everybody was looking at me because they thought it’s a mobile phone - it actually is, sure, but the ‘Flight-Mode’ was activated. Anyway,  I ended up shutting it down, putting it away and staring out of the window.
In 10 hours the train is leaving & then I have to wait 4 hours for our flight - oh God. I hope my mom and I will have fun while waiting there - haha. And wish me luck that I am not falling asleep BEFORE the flight because I would like to sleep during the flight.
So everyone, thanks for reading such a long entry. I wish you all a nice time!
(It could be that I am uploading some entries from Majorca(if it's possible)& let me know if you would like to read those entries? :) )

Alright, I've noticed that I hate packing bags. I always put the things I want to wear during vacation on my bed. My bed is a mess afterwards & I haven't packed everything in my bag yet. Anyway, I will just do fine - no worries. My mum told me a few minutes ago that our flight actually is at 4.40am! The good thing is that we got tickets for the train. The bad thing is that the last train leaves at 11.20pm. That means we are arriving at the airport at 0.20am. That means we have to wait for our flight at least 4hours. Wish me luck that there is no delay & such. While typing here I am watching 'The Dschunglebook' with my little brother. It's really funny actually but oh dear, I have to pack my stuff for tomorrow! But I have no delight right now. Ah, I have a brilliant idea: I am going into my room, turning up the volume & listening to loud music! Maybe that will help.
I will post the last entry tomorrow - again no need to say 'Adios', no?  

In two days I will be on my way to Majorca with my Mum. As I already told you all the flight is at 4 am. But hey, I am looking forward to visit Majorca & I have lots of music & videos on my Ipod Touch - I will survive the flight at 4am. I don't know if our hotel has internet but I can write everywhere with my Ipod Touch & then I just need to find internet there but I think our hotel has Wlan & stuff. I would love to tell you about Paguera - the place where we are staying - and tell you something about the weather, the people and everything that you would like to know. If you have a question then ask it & I will answer. I hope that my spanish will get better. Sure, I am just 8 days there but maybe I notice any differences when I am back home. Or maybe not. My Mom told me yesterday that they speak german there as well.

You know King of Queens? I love them! I just love every episode. They are so funny & I can watch the same video over & over again. Sometimes my stomach hurts while watching it! Why? Because I have to laught that much! I love the whole Doug & Carry story & Arthur is just so..funny & weird at the same time. If you never heard of them then go to YouTube & just search for 'King of Queens' & watch some videos.  If you love to laugh then King of Queens is definitely something for you! I 've put some episods of KoQ ('King of Queens) into my Ipod Touch so I have something to laugh while sitting in this plane 2 hours. And I will watch High School Musical 1 in spanish as well! I 've put that one into it as well. There is no need to get bored - haha. Maybe I'll post another entry tomorrow or Sunday before leaving. So there is no need to say 'Goodbye' right now. I hope everyone is alright.

Harry Potter 6 was nice but I sometimes got the feeling that everything went too quick somehow. You got this feeling as well? The movie was nice but what happened to all those kissing scenes for example? Harry & Ginny were cute but Ron with his flame - poor Ron! Anyway, Hermine is way better for him. Have you noticed that Draco Malfoy grew up that much? He looks mature somehow & his face looks more 'male' now. Sure, I don't like his role but I noticed that somehow.
I hated the part where Albus Dumbledore had to drink this black-looking water. And that Harry had to give it to him made it even worse. Anyway, I don't want to annoy you all with such things since many of you watched it.

The night was awful. I am not afraid of thunders & such but last night it was really annoying! I could live with the noise (which was really loud) but this never ending change of darkness & light really annoyed me.(Light when the thunder came & darkness when it was gone.) I am really tired. Maybe I'll just go to bed again since a friend will visit me at 2 pm -4hours left till she arrives at my place. Oh God. I am yawning every 6minutes. I hope my friend doesn't mind me yawning all the time. Yawn. See, it happened again! Anyway, we will have fun - my friend & me :)
Wish me a thunder-free night,alright? Thanks.